The things we do for health.

The things we do for health.

Yeah, that’ll keep me out.

Yeah, that’ll keep me out.

So basically none of you know, but recently I was diagnosed with a super severe vitamin D deficiency. I broke my arm in October and I live in a place where the air hurts your face in the winter, these things contributed to a deficiency I already had. On top of this I have other hormone issues that affect my general energy levels.

Well, in typical mom fashion, instead of realizing I needed to go to the doctor for a whole bunch of symptoms, I let my exhaustion drag on to the extreme while I filled my body with pure sugar, carbs, and an impressive optimism… for months. What did I get for that? Fat, I got fat. I also got a raging sugar addiction and eventually a hefty prescription for vitamin D.

The dreaded summer clothes season is quickly approaching, and none of mine fit. So, I decided to quit sugar cold turkey to help facilitate my calorie restriction (and other reasons), here is my daily diary of events:

April 26th: It’s day one of my personal sugar ban. I have had zero sugar today and now I want to die. I have longingly sniffed a Cadbury egg package, and proceeded to put all the half price Easter chocolate into the freezer. The headache I’m experiencing is the same level as that tequila hangover I had with MB a few years ago. That hangover lasted 72 goddamn hours. My future looks pretty dim at this point.

*Insomnia*

I feel less alone I think.

I feel less alone I think.

April 27th: It’s my mom’s birthday! Happy birthday Mom! I won't be having any cake today in your honor sadly, instead I will be googling things like “can sugar withdrawal cause diarrhea” Spoiler alert: it can. Also, I’m not the only one who has googled that, idk if I’m comforted or horrified. Headache still going strong. Later, I dropped my dog off at the groomer and then came home and panicked when I couldn’t find her. Clearly this is going well.

*More insomnia*

April 28th: Made a beautiful breakfast, ate, did dishes, went about my day. Left the stove on the whole time. D1, who is almost 13 yo and clearly the more responsible person here, is now following me around. Says he’s my babysitter.

*Tried to beat insomnia with unisom, not effective*

April 29th: Brain fog is serious. I put my car in reverse this morning taking D2 to school… which would be fine if I hadn't been backed in. Almost took out the garage door. Can I really smell the neighbor making toast, or I’m daydreaming? Why am I doing this? Despite the cravings, my headache is gone and I had enough energy to shampoo the carpets. Just enough. I am now nearly comatose.

*… No insomnia, can it be over?!*

April 30th: Having serious cravings today. My husband offered takeout and I stayed strong. Yeah, cauliflower totally tastes like pizza and cookies. *Sobs continuously*

*Ha, lies, insomnia*

May 1st: Rough night of zero deep sleep. Woke up with a headache, but improved by lunchtime. Appetite way down (yay). My arm feels a ton better, inflammation is down.

*Slept crazy hard*

Been flexing my culinary muscles though, and that part is fun. All the veggies and lean proteins.

Been flexing my culinary muscles though, and that part is fun. All the veggies and lean proteins.

May 2nd: “It must be Thursday. I never could get the hang of Thursdays.”- Arthur Dent. I feel kind of great today actually. Started with a 9 am occupational therapy appointment, grocery shopping and meal prep, and then D2's audition for the talent show. No sugar cravings. Even attended a pot luck, literally the theme was bread, and I stayed the course.

*Slept amazing*

May 3rd: Happy Friyay! It’s date night. And I’m so very excited. R has made a point of making sure we schedule regular date nights, this is our first since the move. I’m super lucky to have good friends in the area to babysit, so it’s a long date. Dinner and a play. I get to pick the restaurant, so naturally I'm going to pick a place that is not known for its desserts.

*Slept!*

May the fourth be with you: I, obviously, have large plans of Star Wars all day. This is my 9th day sugar/processed carbs free. I believe the withdrawal is over, and I feel actually great. The debilitating cravings have ended, and sleep has returned to normal. I have to report back to my doctor soon, I don’t think I will show him this blog, I’ll probably lie and tell him it was super easy. I truly can’t wait to show him my arm though, it's improved a lot.

So notes from a crazy person, for those who also want to be crazy:

• Don’t start this during a time where you need to be on your A game. Your brain will betray you.

• Always consult your doctor, they know all your health history and this may or may not be something you should even do. Everyone is different, and face different health challenges.

• Set yourself up for success by forcing your offspring to eat all of your favorite sugar filled snacks. I recommend combining this with a long family walk.

Hopefully now I can concentrate on helping get my health back in order, I’m pretty important to some people, and I’d like my body to make it a few more years. Sometimes we moms (parents) forget that we also have to be a priority. And if this happens, don’t beat yourself up, just correct it. The house won’t make it if the foundation is crumbling.

-Suzanne

Thankfully, I have caffeine to keep me alive.

Thankfully, I have caffeine to keep me alive.

She'll Be A Fire Bell Soon

She'll Be A Fire Bell Soon

Continue - A poem for those who need it

Continue - A poem for those who need it